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Update on my life Thursday, January 15, 2009

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Hey.

I know I haven’t updated in a while, things have been kinda hard the last couple of weeks. Lots of Tragedy in a short period of time. :( It’s getting easier now, I hope.

I haven’t been writing much because I’ve basically been a zombie for a while, but I’m coming out of it, so I think the best thing to do is to start writing again. I’m working on my novel for one of my classes, so I may be posting sections of that. As of right now three days a week I have nothing going on, so there’s no reason for me not to post at least twice a week.

That will be my goal for 2009, post a blog at least twice a week. Work through everything with writing like I use to.

OH! and I’m doing another project on the ‘tube, a collab channel with several friends it’s called the sassyladysociety. Link : http://www.youtube.com/sassyladysociety Please check it out! we will love you forever!

 

Lots of <3 Deanna

 

First and Last Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Go for it now.  The future is promised to no one.  ~Wayne Dyer

To Rob, a life cut way too short, he’ll always live in our memories.  9-2-86 to 12-7-08

 If your reading my blog you most likely know that the weekend before Thanksgiving I lost my Great-Grandma, the following story is about her, the last and first memories of her that I have.

Last and First

My cousin Aaron turned around in his pew and leaned toward me as I sat between our cousins Angie and Becky. Two little boys, maybe six or seven years old, were walking by; two adorable little boys wearing little sweater vests and bow ties with neatly combed dark hair. “Those boys ain’t Cooley’s,” Aaron whispered.

Angie giggle/snorted into her hand and wiped a slow moving tear from her eye. Becky flipped a piece of her long blonde hair over her shoulder.

“They’re Francis’s nephews,” my grandmother answered from her wheelchair in the grieving line, reaching behind her to smack Aaron on the knee. Becky and I giggled and looked away. We’re supposed to be quiet, there isn’t supposed to be laughter in a church.

“Guess I was right,” Aaron whispered, sliding quickly out of our grandmother’s wingspan into his wife, a chorus of giggles erupted behind him, Grandma shot a look that could kill in our direction.

“Like Gran would really expect us to behave in church, she already got all the boys to wear ties with no hats.” Angie whispered, suppressing another giggle fit.

“Great-Grandma would be sitting her laughing at with us,” I replied.

“Yeah Barb,” Becky joined. “She could only expect so much from the Cooley clan. She’s having the last laugh with all the boys in ties without hats. I don’t think Junior hasn’t worn a hat since Great Grandpa passed in 1990. He wore a hat at his daughters wedding.”

“A cowboy hat,” Aaron replied. “A very dressy cowboy hat. It matched the fancy cowboy boots he had on.” Aaron and the rest of us tried to hold in an outburst of laughter, but it wasn’t going to happen. We’d begun to draw attention from people besides just Grandma Barb.

“Gran always made the boys take off their hats in pictures,” Becky giggled

I sat there between my two cousins who I hadn’t seen in six years. Becky had gotten married and had three kids since that last time I saw her. Angie had been married twice, but it was as if we hadn’t missed a beat.  The internet had brought the thirteen hundred miles between us seem like feet. 

We spent two days in that church, with three hundred other people, all of them in one way or another related to us. The Cooley’s had lived in Grant County Wisconsin since 1866. The first grave stone in the main cemetery, the one where my Great-Grandparents are, is for Charles H. Cooley, and eighth generation American, the first to live in Lancaster. I’m the sixteenth generation, and my dad is the only Cooley boy that doesn’t live within 100 miles of where my Great-Grandma used to live in Lancaster.

 

I was eleven the first time I remember going to Grant County, my little brother was eight. We have lived there for nine months when I was two, but I don’t remember much about it on account of being two. I mostly Aaron catching on fire behind the television because my aunt wasn’t watching him, but that may be an implanted memory from hearing the story so many times. My grandfather still has the chard walker in his basement, so I at least know that part of the story is true.

  I’d meet quite a few of my Mid-Western relatives, my three grandmothers had visited for birthday or holidays, my aunt Rhonda and cousin Aaron had been out a few times. I knew enough to get by, or at least that’s what I thought. I figured my dad’s family would be a lot like my mom’s: big, but small enough to remember who everyone was and who they belonged to. I had no idea my dad at nineteen cousins, and nine seconds cousins, at the time. Put on top of that my dad’s three siblings, and all my Grandfather’s siblings, the population of Lancaster Wisconsin at least doubled at a Cooley family function.

My parents decided it would be best for the four of us to take a minivan half way across the United States for my Great-Grandmother’s 75th birthday and my dad’s twenty year high school reunion. The twenty one hour drive in July heat was about as much fun as it sounds if not less.

What I remember most about my first day in Grant County, was a piece poster board duct taped to a road sign the announced the population of North Andover: nine. The bright green poster board read: “Grandma Cooley’s seventy-fifth birthday at the Lancaster fair grounds. July 18th. Rod and family are coming from New Hampshire! So you have no excuse for not coming Tony.” I pinched my brother and pointed to it.

 As we started to laugh uncontrollably, my dad in his deep slightly mid-western accent said: “Grant County is a lot different than back home. It’s a big deal that we’re here.” 

My dad steered our silver minivan into the short driveway of small grey house, a white Buick Le Saber in the open garage. Three large cement deer sat in the front yard looking toward the Lancaster Elementary School, all three with large metal chains around their necks which were secured to the outer wall of the basement of the house: Great-Grandma Cooley’s. I learned later that those deer had been stolen as a school prank on more than one occasion, but always returned in a day or so, normally with a note attached apologizing to my Great-Grandparents.

“Go in through the garage and tell Gran you need to use the bathroom,” my dad told Josh. My brother opened the sliding door and jumped down out of the van and ran into the house, my dad shortly behind him, my mom and I in line behind him.

“Gran, I’m just using your bathroom,” my brother yelled, then looked to my father for directions.

“All ya kids ever do is come and use my bathroom and steal my cookies,” the soothing thick mid-western voice of Gran Cooley called from the living room. I heard a chair push back and her gentle footsteps across the floor.

A 4 foot 3 inch woman, with curly white hair that stood in the threshold between the living room and kitchen: “You son-of-a-bitch.” She grabbed a Grant County Harold Independent, rolled it and smacked my dad several times in the arm. There stood a woman the clearly fit the description my father always gave her: the little Chihuahua nipping at anyone within reach. “Thirteen- hundred miles and ya can’t wait ‘til you get to your ma’s to use the bathroom!”

“Sorry Grandma,” he said, looking at the floor. My dad, a six foot four easily 200 pound man stood powerless, at the mercy of this four foot three maybe 100 pound woman. But aren’t we all powerless against our grandmothers? “I had to stop to say hi.”

“Well fine then, but you’re taking me out for pizza then,” Gran Cooley wasn’t supposed to eat pizza because of her cholesterol levels, my dad reminded her of this fact. He knew Gran was trying to trick him into taking her to Happy Joes, a small pizza chain in South Western Wisconsin. “You son-of-a-bitch, I’m 74 years old if I want a piece of pizza I’ll have a piece of pizza!”

 

As I sat in the church that day, eleven years later between Becky and Angie, who I met for the first time that day I went to Great-Grandma’s for the first time. I felt amazingly jealous. I had spent a total of six months with my Great-Grandma. Six months of my twenty-two years, and they had their whole lives, memories that I’ll never have, I’ll only have second hand stories. As much as I loved my Great-Grandma, and loved the few stories I have of her in my life, I selfishly want so many more. Angie, Becky and Aaron remember riding her chained up cement deer. All I have pepperoni pizza and the look of surprise across an old woman’s face the day we showed up at her house that day, but that’s two things more than most people my age can say they have from their great-grandparents. Even as we laid her in the ground that cold November afternoon — as sad and heart breaking as it was — I could tell we all felt extremely lucky to have known her, and have a Grandma that lived to see her oldest of her forty-three grandchildren turn forty-five.   

 

sorry Monday, December 8, 2008

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sorry for the extreme lack of updating lately.

Schools been getting crazy since I missed a week to go to wisconsin for my grandma.

I’ll have **hopefully** a ton of new stuff over break!

 

harry potter merch Thursday, November 20, 2008

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so on this http://alivans.com/custom/web/list.asp?c=19742&pageid=10276 website. there are Harry Potter sweaters.

 

Harry Potter sweaters ftw.

 

Vlog project songs Saturday, November 15, 2008

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This is the song list and lyric list that I use in my vlog

Link: http://www.youtube.com/misuseofairqoutes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYNgHnB_3ng

The World I know by Collective soul: Hope still lingers on

Jesus and Gravity by Dolly Patron: Taking all these blessings I’ve been given one by one

Always be my baby - David Cook verson: Time can’t erase a feeling this strong

Dream on by Aerosmith: Everybody’s got their dues in life to pay

Get up and go by Hanson: I look at the stars and I remember

Accio Deathly Hallows by Hank Green: Like Pheonix tears on a broken nose

Open Arms by Journey: How can our love be so blind

Mr Tambourine man as sung by the Byrds: I’m not sleepy and there ain’t no place I’m going to

Boy Crazy by New Found Glory: You’ve got to watch out for the Beautiful ones

Innocent by Our Lady Peace: I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

Johnny and June by Heidi Newfield: Ring of Fire burning in you

L.G. Fuad by Motorcity Soundtrack: Like the last tim e I committed suicide, social suicide

Hungry like the wolf by Duran Duran: I’m on the Hunt I’m after  you

Superstar by Sonic Youth, for the Juno Soundtrack: I fell in love with you before the second show

Blackbird by the Beatles: Take these broken wings and learn to fly

Day Tripper as sung by David Cook (there is a verse missing in David’s verson) It took me so long to find out by I found out

Living in Fast Forward by Kenny Chesney: Now i need to rewind real slow

Looking for Alaska as covered by Hank Green: I hope you escape this labyerinth of suffering

You’re so Vain by Carly Simon: You had me serveral ears ago when I was still quite Naive

Weird by Hanson: Isn’t is Strange

 

Harry Potter Story Saturday, November 15, 2008

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WARNING: THERE ARE BOOK 6&7 SPOILERS, however if you have managed not to recieve book 6&7 spoilers by now, you won’t understand the story.

 

A Childhood Ending

 

               

A Childhood Ending

 

                That Saturday in July was typical for most people, but for me, and several thousand others, it was the ending of something we hoped never would. I stood in line at Barnes and Noble for five hours at the midnight release. I wouldn’t start the book until the sun rose, but I needed to have in my hands as soon as possible.

                That night as I slept I kept one hand on the cover. I barely slept for more than three hours in anxious excitement. In my hands lay the apex of the last ten years of my life, everything that I had awaited the last two years for. Inside the 759 pages was the end of my childhood, the end of the journey of Harry Potter.

                By four o’clock Monday afternoon on my way to work, about 630 pages into the book. I sat alone in the back corner of the K-Mark parking lot in Portsmouth New Hampshire, locked inside my Lancer, Deathly Hallows propped open against my steering wheel.

                Alone in my head, deep within the walls of Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry, I thought that nothing bad could possibly happen in the last seven pages of the chapter entitled “The Second Battle for Hogwarts.” What could possibly be worst than Snape killing Hedwig, or losing of Mad Eye less than a quarter in the book? I found my answer on page 637.

                As I read the words my mind couldn’t wrap around what J.K. Rowling had just done to my life. I re-read the page, hoping my mind had tricked me. It hadn’t. Percy Weasley had killed his brother, Percy Weasley, the most hated of the Weasley brood was the reason Fred lay dead before the entry to the Great Hall. Fred Weasley was dead. And I had to punch into work in less than five minutes.

                To fully understand my emotions at this moment in time, I should take you back to age eleven: the first time I read The Sorcerer’s Stone. When Harry Potter first enters Platform 9 ¾, and he meets the younger Weasley children; his soon to be best friend Ron, his little sister Ginny, and the twins, Fred and George. As Harry loads into the Hogwarts Express, Fred and George yell to their mother, that they’ll send her a Hogwarts toilet seat. In that five page exchange I fell in love with a pair of fictional trouble makers. They were everything I wanted to be, the opposite of what I was.

                Fred became my favorite because he was a better trouble maker than George was. While George stood in the background of the books, his twin brother took more a leadership role in the family business they created. In a way I became Fred Weasley as I grew to understand myself. Junior year of high school, my best friend and I, after discovering that we both loved the Weasley twins, assigned each other names of fictional red-headed brothers. She was George. I was Fred. In a twisted way, one that only a true Harry Potter fan could understand. I was the brave one, although in reality I was never the brave one. Being Fred Weasley to my best friend gave me inner power I would not have found otherwise.

                By the third book I had fallen completely for a fictional red-headed boy. I knew at the age of thirteen, that I loved, and would always love Fred Weasley. Life was simpler then, J.K. Rowling hadn’t killed anyone we, the Harry Potter fandom, had grown to love. It wasn’t until we all saw Cedric Diggory, laying dead in Little Hangleton graveyard, killed by Voldemort in The Goblet of Fire,  when his ghost comes out of The Dark Lord’s wand and says: “Harry… take my body back, will you? Take my body back to my parents…,” that the first thought that something could possibly happen to my Fred. When Sirius, fell behind the veil in Order of the Phoenix, the thought crossed my mind again. Cedric was a fringe character. Sirius was fast becoming a main part of Harry’s life, but Rowling wouldn’t kill a Weasley, not a main character like Weasley.

                In The Half Blood Prince, all the thoughts of what J.K. Rowling was capable of changed on page 596, when Snape held the wand that killed our beloved Headmaster, Albus Dumbledore.

                Anticipation of the seventh book grew everyday after finishing book six. With each passing day the thoughts of what Rowling would do grew scarier, yet I never thought a Weasley would lay victim to the second battle for Hogwarts, not a beloved Weasley, not Fred.

 

                I sat in my car that Monday, tears running down my face. I had to bring myself back together to work my cash register, but the boy I’d loved since I was eleven was dead. My fictional boyfriend, as sad and ridiculous as it was, lay dead. Fred wasn’t just my fictional boyfriend, but a part of me. I was lying dead on the floor outside the Great Hall of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. My imagination in pieces.

                Slowly, I walked across the mostly empty parking lot, the orange book clinched to my chest. I entered the through the automatic doors. I turned to the service desk. Barbara and Jo stood by the time clock.

                “Are you alright?” Jo asked.

                I replied with something the sounded like: “Harry Potter. My boyfriend. Percy. Killed. Wall. Fred. Dead.” And the tears poured down my face.

                Jo, who was also a Potter fan, seemed to understand. Although she hadn’t read the sixth book yet, there was a look on her face of understanding. “Are you going to be alright?”

                “No,” I cried, pulling the book closer to my face, smelling the pages. “Fred. Stupid. Percy. Unneeded. Deaths.” I gasped.

                “I’ll call in Lisa,” Barbara said, picking up the phone. “I don’t think she reads Harry Potter.”

                Jo took me by the arm and led me into the back room. We sat there together until I could breathe again. Then, she sent me home.

                Back in my bed room, I locked myself in my room and cried. I cried of two straight days. I did not look at the book again until Thursday, when I became curious of who else’s life J.K. Rowling would destroy for no reason, first Cedric, then Sirius, then Dumbledore, then Hedwig, then Mad-Eye, and Fred. Five more senseless lives, Professor Lupin, his young wife Tonks, Colin, and others would be taken in the Great Hall in the next three chapters. Then Jo Rowling confuses her readers who had for so long hated Professor Snape, by making him a better character than Harry, and throws salt in our wounded hearts and imaginations by giving an epilogue that contains nothing but crap. Then it was over. The last ten years of my life, the Harry Potter years were over.  

                My world was upside down. My childhood was over. It died on page 637, along with Fred Weasley, with a smirk on his face.

                 

 

 

The Plan Friday, November 14, 2008

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The Plan

 

Part I

 

He crouched next to the dumpster behind the Getty station, a half smoked Camel Light in one hand, and a yellow Bic lighter in the other. Harper took shallow breaths, although he was barely nineteen, he easily had the lungs of a forty-year old. His pack a day habit was slowly eating away at him. He knew he had to get his wind back before the rest of them showed up. He leaned back on the heels of well worn navy blue Chuck Taylor Converse All Stars, peering around the green dumpster to look into the parking lot of the American Legion across the street. Nothing; the only sign of life was a plastic Wal-Mart bag; windblown against the chain link fence.

                Harper patted the pockets of his dirty jean jacket, checking for the small pocket knife he kept in his coat at all times. He placed his lighter in the opposite pocket; just to make sure he didn’t grab the wrong one in the middle of things. He knew it was supposed to be a fair skin only fight, but Jack and Patrick always fought dirty. Harper wasn’t going to let those boys take advantage of him and his older brother again. One glass cut across Kennedy’s face was more than enough when Jack Callahan didn’t have one that matched.

                Harper dropped the butt of his Camel Light to the ground, crushed it with the white plastic of the toe of his shoe, the picked it up off the ground and flicked it into the dumpster, as crude as Harper could be, he knew leaving cigarettes on the ground was gross, and never did it. With his other hand, he felt the small smooth covering of his pocket knife. He pulled it out, rubbing his thumb over the ivory colored cover. He flicked it open, trying to find his reflection in the blade. He couldn’t.

                From somewhere behind him the sound of crushing leaves broke his attention from the knife. As he turned he shoved the knife back into his pocket; no use giving secrets to the enemy. Harper caught a glimpse of the boy walking toward him, a fairly tall twenty year old, a good twenty pounds heavier than he was, who had the same midnight black hair and crystal like blue eyes as he did, though his hair wasn’t shaggy like Harpers, but in a tight buzz cut. Harper nodded upward toward his older brother, who nodded downward back. Kennedy wore his pants cuffed to the top of his white Converse high tops, very 1950’s, oh so very Kennedy.

                The brothers stood side by side, leaning against the rusting dumpster. Kennedy looked down at his watch. “Five minutes,” He whispered. Harper leaned around the side of the green rectangle smelling of rot, to the empty parking lot. The only change in the scene across the street was a second bag; this one from Subway joined the Wal-Mart one against the chain link. It was unlike Jack and Patrick to be late to a brawl. Maybe Kennedy was lying to him, maybe this was all some kind of set up.   

 

Part II

                Kennedy closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Five minutes until he told his little brother the real reason they were meeting next to that dumpster; the reason he made sure Harper had his knife. Kennedy shoved his hands into his pockets, and pulled out a tiny piece of paper, small enough for Harper not to want to read it himself, big enough to hold the information Kennedy claimed it did.

                “Harp,” he whispered. Harper leaned back against the dumpster. “I got the wrong station; it’s supposed to be in the field by the Shell, not the Getty.” Living in a town with eight gas stations in less than a half mile made this lie easily believable.

                “I’ve been waiting out here for a freaking hour,” Harper spat back. “The A-frame’s way different than the Shell. We’ve only lived in Kurtwood our whole lives, how could you mess important info like that up?”

                “It’s a small piece of paper,” Kennedy answered, struggling to find something that made sense. “I saw station, figured the Getty, that’s where all the fights go down. I just figured.”

                “If we get there and they claim we’re late, we’re fucked. You realize this right?” Harper slammed his hands into his coat pockets, as they walked down the highway to the next gas station. Kennedy tried to suppress a smile, his plan was working perfectly.

Part III

                Harper walked three feet ahead of Kennedy, not wanting to hear even his breath or foot steps. His brother may have cost them another fight. Kennedy was always doing stupid things like this. That’s why he had the half moon scar under his eye, that’s why Harper had broken is arm three times in the last eight years. Harper needed to start a mutiny over his big brother, become the brains of the operation. He’d always been the smarter brother; Kennedy was all brawn.

                Harper reached the traffic light across from the Shell a good three minutes before his brother. Harper may have the lungs of a forty year old, but besides that he was completely healthy, Kennedy ate at fast food joints on the strip everyday. From across the street Harper could tell there was no one in the field by the Shell either. Jack Callahan’s Chevy Blazer and Patrick’s Ford Focus weren’t in the parking lot. Something was up.

                “Hey, moron, they’re not here!” Harper yelled up the street as Kennedy grew closer, breathing heavily. “Check that stupid napkin again! Which station is it?”

Part IV

                “This one,” Kennedy said, grabbing Harper’s shoulder. “Mandi Lascars is working to counter; the stupid chick that’s always high as fuck.” Harper looked as his brother confused. “She’s the easiest of the cashiers to over take.”

                Kennedy reached into the inside pocket of his coat, pulling out two black ski masks, he tossed on to Harper who caught in with the air. “We’re going to take it. Jack and Patrick would never think to do something like this.”

                “Because it’s stupid,” Harper answered, following Kennedy as he dashed across the street. “You’re an idiot.”

                “And you’re clearly my accomplice,” Kennedy reached back inside his pocket and pulled out the butt of a hand gun.”

                “You’re gonna get us fucking killed,” Harper answered.

                “See that minivan, Harp,” Kennedy pointed to a green Ford Windstar pulling up to gas pump number five. “Seeing as we don’t have vehicle, we’re going to need that one.”

                “Fucking moron,” Harper whispered, as Kennedy ran into the store.

Part V

                Mandi Lascars was sitting on the counter as a masked chubby, dark haired boy, she knew, even though he had a ski mask over his face, as Kennedy Davenport entered. They went to high school together, she’d dated Harper. A boy she could clearly see standing in front of the building smoking a cigarette. The Davenport boys were never far part.

                Mandi was filing her nails and chewing gum loudly, “Hey Kenny,” she said twisting her dirty blond pony tail around her index finger.

                “Not now Mandi, I’m robbing you.” Kennedy Davenport had clearly never done this before. Normally the robber didn’t tell the rob-ee who they were. “Give me everything in the cash register.”

                “Kenny, you’re joking right?” Mandi asked, hopping down from the counter and sticking her emery board behind her ear.

                Kennedy pulled out his gun. “No, empty it.” He pointed it toward Mandi, then to the register, then back at Mandi. The scared girl pulled a key out from underneath her shirt, tied to a chain around her neck. She unlocked the register and handed the insides to Kennedy. “Wait til we clear the lot before calling the cops. I know you have to, and I know you know who we are, but seriously Mandi, let us get away.”

                Mandi nodded as Kennedy exited the store.

Part VI

                As Kennedy exited, Harper ran toward the green minivan. A young pregnant lady stood by the passenger’s side door pumping gas. As she put the nozzle back into the pump Harper struck. “Ma’am, I’m going to need you car.” He said.

                Harper pulled open the drivers side door and placed the woman’s purse on the ground, the keys were still in the ignition. “Worst plan ever.”

                Harper pulled the car to the front of the building, Kennedy jumped into the passenger’s side, and then Harper sped away. In the rear view, Harper watched the pregnant woman dial her phone. He knew her, one of the down falls of living in a town with a population of under 5000, there was a fairly good chance that the dark green Ford Minivan they stole belonged to the town librarian, who’s youngest daughter was pregnant, and looked fairly similar to the women now holding a cell phone to her face.

                “We’re completely fucked,” Harper said, pulling the mask off his face. “Completely and utterly fucked; because you’re a moron.”

                Harper turned on to the highway, heading East, as the flashing lights started to catch up with them. 

 

 

 

TWLOHA Thursday, November 13, 2008

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Today is To Write Love on Her Arms day, or twloha.

Twloha is an organization that brings awareness to depression, self injury, and suicide. Today, anyone can take a sharpie, or a pen, or a regular marker and write LOVE in big letters across their arms. It takes 30 seconds, and washes off. Even Sharpie washes off, it just takes alittle extra soap. Isn’t having to scrub your arm a little bit harder worth saving someones life.

 

It only takes one person to say “Hey I understand,” to save a life. Let the world know you willing to make a difference. Write love on your arms.

 

www.twloha.com

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNPv5BY7ba8

 

Ah, sorry guys Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Filed under: Poems — Deanna C. @ 11:41 am
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Sorry I almost forgot about you with my video project and nanowrio….

 

heres a poem until i come up with a story… :(

 

 

I watched the birds chip away-

The last of his bones

Was death always this cruel?

 

Slowly I lean back-

Into my own awaiting doom

The door closes—darkness settles

 

It’s not at all as I pictured

The dark is almost comforting

But then again, I always liked to be alone

 

A halloween story Friday, October 31, 2008

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This is the story of my Halloween’s past.

Every Halloween for as long as I can remember, it has either been down pouring or snowing, this is seriously the first one without extreme weather in the 22 years I’ve been Halloweening. (Oh that’s right I went Trick or Treating when I was four days old, I was a pumpkin. and It was raining.)

I never really like Halloween, not because it’s not fun, but it’s always been really boring to me, and I don’t like rain to touch me, or talking to people, or being outside at night, or scary things. So Halloween is like all of my least favorite things together, I used to call it suck-day when I was kid.

One of my first real Halloween memory was in first grade, about a week before, when my class was taught the Halloween song, it basically goes “H-A-Double L-O-W-double E-N” and then there are words, but I was seven so I don’t remember the whole song. Why I even remember that part, is because Halloween was one of our spelling words that week and we all sang the song to our teacher, Mrs. Jones, and she flipped out! She was all ‘double L’ and ‘Double E’ are not letters!!! That is not proper English!!! Who taught you this!!”

It was kind of scary, we were just singing a song.  

That’s all I really have to say about Halloween, I like that story, and it amazes me every October when I’m writing Halloween that the song is still in my head  “H-A-Double L-O-W-double E-N.”  It will be the only word in the English  Language I will never butcher.

 

And that is the end of the story